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we're just ordinary people. [Dec. 13th, 2009|11:40 am]
your warm whispers--out the dark they carry my heart.


Last night I had a dream

That we fell in love under moonlight

You and I will always touch

But the morning came too soon

I woke up without you


And if you want me

Why do you look the other way?

If you need me

Why do you say the things you say?

If you love me

Why do we play the games we play?

Am I in love with the dreamer?

Or am I just in love with the dream?


Hey,are you leaving so soon?

Hey,when you leave me,

You leave me with a hope

That my dream with you might come true


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happyness [Dec. 13th, 2009|11:22 am]

ONE SEM OF LAW SCHOOL IS OVER :D
The exams are finally over too! (though results come out on the 22nd! I hope the shopping in Shenzhen is so good that I forget to go and check my results till I get back. While I'm quite happy with what I did for the exams this time (though alright, it still could have been so much better) I think what I actually did in the exam hall itself didn't really do myself justice--which is stupid, but I can't help that now, so I'll just enjoy myself this hol and go back ready to work next sem! eep.)
One week of the hol has passed already, and it's been great so far :) Phuket with Jess, Darius and Alvin, and Synergy camp! I am so so so happy right now. It is such bliss being able to just lie on my bed and read Feynman because I can :D And go shopping! Need to start christmas shopping soon.

Horribly written phuket log below, just to jog my memory for next time. Sorry it's all in caps. T'was done at about midnight on 8 dec cos I was afraid I'd forget everything when I got back from Synergy camp heh, and my eyes were half closed then, so I needed the capitals so the font would be bigger haha.

-begin phuket-

DAY 1
ARRIVAL IN PHUKET. T-SHIRT,GEMSTONES, DRIED SEAFOOD MANDATORY TOUR WHILE ON OUR WAY TO THE HOTEL TO CHECK IN AND WHILE WE TRIED TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO. CHECK INTO HOTEL. JUNGCEYLON FOODCOURT FOR LUNCH. WALK AROUND JUNGCEYLON AND PATONG A LITTLE. WENT TO THE BEACH. WENT SWIMMING AFTER A LOT OF RUNNING BETWEEN OUR HOTEL AND THE BEACH. KING’S BIRTHDAY SO NO BARS WERE OPEN THAT NIGHT AND PATONG WAS MUCH QUIETER THAN USUAL. STILL, SEAFOOD FOR DINNER! PLUS FIREWORKS IN HONOUR OF THE KING’S BIRTHDAY. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!
WENT HOME. BATHED, ETC. SLACKED IN THE BOYS’ ROOM TALKING AND THEN SLEEEEEP.

DAY 2
WOKE UP EARLY TO GO TO THE JETTY. PHI PHI ISLANDS TOUR! GAY/TRANNIE TOUR GUIDE! NICE BOAT CAPTAIN. AWESOME SPEED BOAT RIDE :D FIRST SNORKELLING STOP WHERE I CHICKENED OUT AT THE SIGHT TOF THE FISH IN THE SEA. NEXT FEW STOPS WERE SIGHTSEEING. AWESOME BEYOND AWESOME LIMESTONE HILLS TO LOOK AT! I AM WAY TOO GEEKY THAT WAY. BUMPY BOAT RIDES THAT MADE IT JUST ABOU IMPOSSIBLE TO TAKE PHOTOS. MONKEY ISLAND ETC. MAYA BAY! STOPPED AT THE BEACH FOR AWHILE. LUNCH AT PHIPHI ISLAND. BAD SEA-SICKNESS INDUCING BOAT RIDE TO NEXT STOP (PARTLY COS OF LUNCH I SUSPECT?) THEN KHAI ISLAND WHERE I TRIED TO SNORKEL AND UMMM TRIPPED ON A ROCK QUITE SOON INTO MY ATTEMPT SO THAT IT WAS CUT SHORT COS I REALISED I HAD A CUT AND I’D BETTER GET OUT OF THE WATER TO CLEAN IT/BEFORE I ATTRACT WHATEVER SHARKS THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN NEARBY  THANKFULLY THE BOAT HAD A FIRST AID KIT WITH ALCOHOL, ETC  LAZED ON THE BEACH. BACK TO PHUKET ISLAND. OH AND ON THE WAY BACK, WE UH, SAW A STANDING BOY ON THE BOAT. HAHA MORE LATER. BACKAT HOTEL, WE LAZED AT THE POOL BEFORE GOING TO BATHE. THEN DINNER AT MK GOLD IN JUNGCEYLON! TALKED COCK A BIT MORE THEN WENT BACK TO ROOM TO CONCUSS. DRUNK PEOPLE WOKE US UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMN NIGHT.

DAY 3
LAZY MORNING (FOR ME). PLAYED PIG AND TABOO AT THE BEACH (JESS:”GUYS DO THIS EVERY NIGHT.” WORD: FANTASY) . JESSIE AND DARIUS WENT JETSKIING! I JUST LAZED AROUND AND TRIED NOT TO GET TOO BURNT HAHAHA. HMMM. BACK TO HOTEL. BATHE. SLACKED IN ROOM WITH JESS AND TALKED. GUYS CAME OVER FOR TABOO ROUND #2 WHICH WAS FRIGGIN' FUN. THEN SEAFOOD DINNER AGAIN! (DIFFERENT RESTAURANT, NOT TOO GREAT THIS TIME)THEN WAITED FOR THE RAIN TO STOP AT THE LOBBY OF SOME RESORT WHILE WE PLAYED GAMES TO PASS THE TIME. WHEN THE RAIN FINALLY STOPPED, I HAD MY FIRST TUK TUK RIDE! GOT TO DINO PARK MINI GOLF SAFELY. HAD A GREAT GAME AND WALKED ALONG KARON BEACH AREA A LITTLE BEFORE HEADING BACK TO PATONG. DROPPED OFF AT JUNGCEYLON. WALKED AROUND AND STOPPED BY AT STARBUCKS FOR A DRINK. AHHHH BEEN WANTING TO JUST LAZE AT STARBUCKS FOR AWHILE :) AND NOW I EVEN HAD COMPANY! BACK TO HOTEL. PLAY CARD GAMES, TALK MORE COCK, TILL 3AM THEN SLEEEEP.

DAY 4
BREAKFAST AT 930. HEADED TO THE BEACH TO LAZE AROUND FOR THE LAST TIME. BACK TO HOTEL TO PACK, CHANGE CHECK OUT. HEADED OUT IN SEARCH OF LUNCH! DECIDED ON PIZZA AT THIS PLACE CALLED NAPOLI. SEAFOOD PIZZA, RAVIOLI, HAM+SALAMI PASTA. HEADED TO JUNGCEYLON FOR A SPOT OF SHOPPING. JESS AND I SAW THIS AWESOME PAIR OF SNEAKERS BUT THEY DIDNT HAVE 'EM OUR SIZE ): THE GUYS CAUGHT US AT ROBINSON LOOKING AT THIS HIDEOUS JACKET (WE REALLY WERE LOOKING AT THE TANK TOP INSIDE.HAHHAA) JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO MAKE A M&S SALMON-NU BRA JOKE. TEEHEEHEE. DECIDED THAT JUNGCEYLON SHOPPING WAS TERRIBLE AND HEADED OUT FOR A WHILE AFTER BUYING (TERRIBLY OVERPRICED) WATER AT CARREFOUR. SAW NICE BUILDINGS AND WALKED AROUND THIS MARKET/BUGIS STREET-LIKE PLACE! ALMOST DIED OF HEATSTOKE. HEADED BACK TO JUNGCEYLONG FOR DAIRY QUEEN ICECREAM! AND LAZED. BOUGHT STUFF AT THE BASEMENT, AND THEN HEADED BACK TO GET OUR LUGGAGE! HAHA OH I MANAGED TO APPLY THE BOLAM TEST TO LIKE, EXPECTATIONS IN RELATIONSHIPS HAHAHA. BOUGHT THE DEPRIVED BURGER ALVIN HAD BEEN FANTASIZING ABOUT SINCE DAY1 FOR DINNER AMONG OTHER DINNER STUFF. HEADED TO AIRPORT TO CHECK IN. FUN DINNER AT BK! DARIUS BOUGHT ONION RINGS + SUNDAE FUDGE BROWNIE TO SHARE! PLANE RIDE HOME. OH AND ON THE WAY, THE BOYS PRESENTED US WITH A PRESENT! I HAVE MY SECRET THEORIES ABOUT IT BUT ANYWAY, IT WAS SWEET OF THEM :)

-end phuket-

Synergy camp was good too, on the whole. I especially loved the ballet masterclass, Ryan's class and Albert Tiong's (!) class. Dancing again after exam break feels really good. Or maybe I shouldn't say that. I'm aching so much now when I sit down onthe floor I sound like an old woman. Haha. But yeah, it's a good sort of ache. Met more people/danced with new people/ got to know a few more people better too. I am especially thankful for people like Joanne, Shantini and Carol. If there were times in the camp when I was secretly fed up and annoyed, their infinite patience was just inspiring. I have a lot of respect for the current exco too, I think they're a great bunch of people. Sure there were days when we got scolded but we deserved it, and like I told Jessie, when you get angry, most of the time, it's cos you really care about something or someone. So yes. Oh and we had a night court like- initiation night too. This time I caught on a lot faster! HAHAHAHA. Beach games at Sentosa on the last day which was perhaps the most fun part of the whole camp heh. On the first night of camp, I slept at 3am and woke up before 7 for breakfast, on the second day we slept at 4am and on the last day I slept at 6am. Zomg, so now I'm a little zonked, but who cares. This is what holidays are for :)

I have my much-awaited sleepover (rooftop stargazing!), lenka's concert, a wedding dinner, shopping + court cases and of course, Grey's Anatomy to look forward to before flying to HK on Sunday!

I am oozing happiness right now. And am only half-expecting an anvil to come and crush my happy bubble.

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Random notes [Dec. 9th, 2009|10:26 pm]
  1. Hello, I want to walk along those cobblestones with you, your black gown flapping in the wind
  2. And you ask me why I continue to do this to myself--because I think dreams are oftentimes better than reality
  3. I do the whole self-alienation thing too much and I need to figure out what exactly triggers it. Not a good sign.
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(no subject) [Nov. 25th, 2009|09:03 am]


I'll be waiting (:

AWW. I have this thing about cats lately. except for Dusty, who completely freaked me out in Lesley's bathroom. Haha.
Had my first uni exam! ummm it wasnt too great but still ok i think *fingers crossed*

Anyway, it's on to the next paper! I should be reading and not blogging now but my stomach was so tied up in knots I had to do something else. Despite almost not talking to anyone (subtantially) at all yesterday, it was quite a good day. Yay for msn. Subsisted on summit food but oh well.

Now my nose is still clogged and I feel like puking, but okay hope springs eternal.

Very thankful for my mum who still worries about whether I ate dinner properly/ tells me she has chocolate even when she's the one who's sick. And shan who still talk's to me when she has two papers tmr. And my dad for picking up every night (: but i will be enought for me, i will be enough for me. I'm not as independent as i used to be, funny. ):

Sometimes I think life never turns out the way you really planned/wanted it to, the way you envisioned it to be. But it's okay, surprise works too : D

Everything's gonna be alright.
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maybe i shouldnt be here but.... [Nov. 15th, 2009|09:34 pm]
On yesterday's things to get list:
  • Mum's terra chips
  • highlighters/post-its
  • A NEW BRAIN (which i couldnt find in Cold Storage. okay, that's kind of morbid haha)
In the midst of exam terror, we went out for dinner and V/V! Well the rest did and I camped out at starbucks while they watched haha. Saving my $$$ for hk shopping and lenka!! Twas a fun night though :D

My studying (if you can even call it that) has been slow and kaput, everytime I think of contracts I have to draw a deep breath and keep from screaming.

The world is bigger and better than this.
The world is bigger and better than this.
The world is bigger and better than this.

But okay, I am glad for friends who keep me afloat through the week and people like Shan and my family to come home to :)

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

- U2, stuck in a moment


I swing so madly between utter despair and then refusing to lose. Pride is so useful sometimes--keeps me hanging in there and the day I throw it away is the day I know I'm really screwed. Haha
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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2009|10:34 am]

Funny thoughts in semi-awake state early this morning.
What my subconscious wants to tell me: live NOW. now now now, and stop worrying about the future and the past and everything. 

First real awake thought was the usual though: arghhhhhhh morning already.

I really should try to regain nocturnal powers. Maybe I could catch the sunrise from my window! It faces the east...I think.

 

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just give me back the pieces [Sep. 28th, 2009|12:44 am]

Whoa. In a flash, 5 weeks of school have gone by and recess week is over (!) School starts again tomorrow later.

People have been leaving, leaving, leaving these past 2 or 3 weekends and left giant people-shaped holes in my heart. I MISS THEM. I miss being able to randomly sms them about funny random things and being able to whinge if i need to. But they're leaving to study and they'll be back, so I suppose I should be excited for them. And I am, but still. Doesn't stop the hole in my heart from getting bigger.

So I have been waiting. But now I resolve to patch that hole in my heart and wait no more!

Okay as I write this, my heart is still breaking, but it will get better! I will get better at this whole thing.

I need to talk to Char about this and get it out of my system, because she will talk some good ,hard sense into me (hopefully but looking at a recent turn of events...hm. Haha!)  but neither of us has time for this frivolity so well.. (:

December promises to be good. People coming back, (real) HOLIDAYS, meeting up with vi and xuan (finally), TRIP OVERSEAS, and a gazbillion other good and wonderful things. I will be patient.

I will make a life that is worth updating people about in December.

So help me.

In the meantime, Ingrid Michaelson's songs make me happy (:


Maybe- Ingrid Michaelson


I don't want to be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me

I don't want to be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me









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Dali [Aug. 15th, 2009|10:10 am]

The past few days have been somewhat surreal.

I can hardly believe that I'm actually in uni now, actually in law school now. There's hardly time to think really, cos we've been bombarded with work/readings from day 1.

Come to think of it, I havent actually absorbed anything much about tort or contract =/ Hahaha. The class I've enjoyed the most so far is actually SLS with the legendary (scary) Prof B! I think it might just be the subject content though, international law and all. Also, this weekend, I've realised how easy it is to fall into the trap on spending so much more time on lawr than on tort or contract. Ahaha.
But I've also managed to go for a couple of welcome teas (slr, campus crusade) so I guess that's not so bad (: 

I am terrified of being like those neurotic (coughpremierivyleaguecollegecough) law school students who cannot handle Bs and failure and stress. But Su Yin has promised to put me in my place if I do HAHA, so yay.

I am still overwhelmed by the thought of next week.

And guess what? I really miss JC, and TA in particular (my dad is vindicated) and everyone really.

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Phuket: 5 days of 24/7 fun [Jul. 11th, 2009|09:35 pm]
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Oh dear, I think this blog gets a little disturbing at times. Haha. Anyway, happy things! (: I AM BACK FROM PHUKET. It was my first ever trip with friends (and no teachers). In fact, I think it was everyone's except Fuzzy's. And we did fine. Sure, we ate a lot of canned soup and instant tom yum noodles (don't think I'll be drinking Campbell soup for awhile yet! and hey, we had great seafood to make up for it) but it was awesome. Can't think of many other groups of people I could spend 6 days 24/7 with, without going nuts--except maybe sf6.

Speaking of which, i finally finally pulled together another sf6 outing! Hahaha. Okay, it wasnt all that smooth....but still ( : I promise we are never going back to Timbre@ Substation, Grazz. We'll stick to the one at the Arts House ok?

Phuket happenings below, just for posterity hahaha.

Day1
Fantastic+cheap seafood dinner(garlic and pepper crab!giant butter prawns!), Checking into the awesome villa (all thanks to the Sias)

Day2
Central Festival Mall and the Jim Thompson factory outlet! Crazy shopping expeditions where we realise how nice Shan is to her sister and how relatively frugal Fuzzy and I are. Grocery shopping trip #1. Thailand has funky potato chip flavours. I think the factory outlet is way over-rated, but Shan and Lesley sure had a good time anyway! They really should make more of those manic-smiling keychain elephants though. Meh. Hahaha.

Day3
Action-packed day! I convinced everyone to go trekking with me to see the Bang Pae Waterfall and the Gibbon Rehab Project bwahaha. Well, Fuzzy and Shan were already my fellow lets-do-stuff! people anyway. I never knew gibbons could get epilepsy/self-harming disorders. Waterfall was uhhhhh...pathetic? Considering it was supposed to be the largest waterfall in Phuket. But we have funny photos from the trek anyway :D Then we went GO KARTING! Me, being very kiam siap, decided that 4SGD/min is outrageous but Fuzzy and Shan went! That's how Shan got her very cool battle scars. But she also got her pseudo victory photo! Mini-golfing at Dino Mini Golf after. Super fun, especially with our ultra-competitive Shanshan. Lesley beat Shanshan! HAHAHA yay for Lesley. Shan and I tied for 2nd! Bwahaha. And now I have a newfound respect for golfers. Dinner at Old Phuket Town (because I wanted to see the supposedly cool architecture.) but it's all modernised and stuff now. Haha die lah, my info is so off. Oh and, swimming+ our best photos of opy in her wolverine and chun li hairstyles + pigging out and watching She's the Man

Day 4
More shopping! This time at Jungceylon. And I went all out since it was our last shopping day haha. Zomg the keds collection in from the sports place in phuket is awesome. WOS should really take a leaf out of their book. Grocery shopping trip #2. Very exciting because we saw someone being caught for trying to steal two packets of cuttlefish by hiding it under his shirt. One more stop at the Jim Thompson outlet. Opy's buggy boy confessions. Back home to dinner + anastasia+ tarzan.

Day5
A lazy start to a lazy rainy day. We woke up late, had a late brekker of canned soup+ eggs with bread. Came up with funny questionnaires/application forms for Shan2. Got tired of sitting around and decided to sneak into try out the pool next door. Diving games. Coconuts and thin-crust pizza by the poolside. Going to the beach and making corny videos. (best footage ever of shan2 and opy being swept off their driftwood love seat) Seafood dinner again! Black pepper crab+ super good garlic and pepper prawns :D Back home, Billionaire= crazy shouting matches. Shan2 won. Su yin says Shan has advantage cos of her naturally competitive streak. Haha. Then Tarzan again while we finish the last of our tidbits 'cause Shan and Su yin can't get enough of him. Opy-Fuzzy-'Tammy' love triangle. Ah, almost-FOC fun.

Day6
Breakfast: my mega chicken vegetable+ minestrone+chicken alphabet soup that everyone gamely finished (probably because we had nothing much else to eat anyways), corn soup and Shan2's omelette. Valiantly tried to finish watching the epic Roddick vs. Federer final. watched till it was 12-12 but then we had to check out. Airport, dunkin donuts then home sweet home!


I didnt shop all that much (compared to my other trips! heh) but the company made it all good! And with uni starting (really, really) soon, I appreciate them all the more :) 
 

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i am in love with these lyrics [Jun. 29th, 2009|11:15 pm]
Between mistakes and new beginnings
This city swells up like a symphony
I disappear in those bodies of motion
And a comforting wave washes over me

-The Paper Raincoat, Brooklyn Blurs
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pebbles and dino [Jun. 7th, 2009|12:39 am]

Such exquisite irony.

that I spent all week convincing myself that I'd done the right thing and WHAM. I'm faced with another choice/option at the end of the week. UGHHH.

and that now when i've been asked, I don't feel that happy or excited anymore. HAHAHA. almost burst out laughing in front of the computer.

What DO You want from me???

Like I was joking the other day, there are always two ways of looking reacting to things: 
1. Say, "Thank God I've made it through so much. It's all by His grace and mercy"
...and ...
2. Shake your fist at the heavens and demand, " Haven't you had enough fun yet?! This isn't funny! Not funny at all."
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which notebook? [May. 30th, 2009|10:19 pm]

These past few months, I've actually felt pretty incredulous when my friends expressed a fervent wish to get new stationery and misc stuff for uni. That's like months before uni starts.

But today I finally reached a point where I'm excited enough to want to get a new notebook! Or at least, decide which one (out of the precious pile that's on my shelf) I want to use for the next sem/ year :D

YAY.


Oh and I've been meaning to share this: 
 
Therapy is expensive.
Chocolate is cheap.
What to do? What to do?


:D

Edit: which reminds me, I also need a new electronic notebook. HAH. 
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week in a pseudo-list [May. 30th, 2009|08:30 pm]
  • Our music-in-the-city performance is over!! After two weeks of crazy rehearsals that made it seem like we were doing a major concert all over again. I will miss performing,and the stage, and dancing :(  And Nicole, if you read this, thanks so much for dropping by! haha
     
  • Anna Karenina (by Finnish National) was pretty good. Met tree, S and B at the esplanade! I think using the video thingo for backgrounds is really clever--saves so much trouble, don't you think? I thought the set was still pretty impressive though. OK, I'm just impressed by the train station and the racecourse set. Haha. Incidentally, what is it with death-by-oncoming-train?! Karen in 'The Red Shoes' throws herself onto the railway track too. 
     
  • I'm back at work now! Work is good. I love work. Haha
     
  • Went to the driving circuit for the first time today! FUN. It's like going through some sort of obstacle course. And it feels very safe. Haha. Anyway, I feel like I can control the car better now. Oops
     
  • Must remember to contact my tuition kid...tomorrow. Gah.
     
  • Also, am amazed by how PB-obsessed Ms Y is. I mean, we all know she's a huge fan... but still! HAHA. Oh well, at least it gives me an excuse to meet her and break the news to her. I am already expecting the wthell-michelle-lim-you-are-so-screwed-up look/lecture. AHAHA. Maybe she'll forgive me on account of the PB dvds? Heh heh heh. This is one present she will not refuse anyway.
     

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Progress [May. 25th, 2009|10:09 pm]


I think I've finally made up my mind.

Am being completely rational and irrational at the same time, as strange as that sounds. Like I was 5 years ago.

 All I know is that it won't be a bad choice, no matter what. I could be happy somewhere else. But I know I'll be just as happy here. (Haha Fuzzy would say this is just me trying to make myself feel happier.)

It's still very...cerebral though. I don't feel anything any excitement--sometimes my heart just seems to go cold just thinking about it; but sometimes a sense of peace, knowing things will turn out fine.

In other news:
  • I love tjdance's syf 2009 item! So pretty, and very very happy  (: 
  • I feel kinda old. There were three batches of dancers in the studio today..
  • The GSS has just started I think, yay! Please let all the nice italian shoes be on 50%-70% off .Haha.
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hello, it's me again [May. 21st, 2009|10:52 pm]


HAHAHA YES I actually finished reading the FTT book before dinner!

Dinner with Rach was good (: I am so thankful to have at least one person I can talk to about all this. No one else would understand, cos I don't think I could tell anyone else.

I'd quite made my mind up by dinner really. But she made me think again! Heh

We all have to make our own lives sooner or later.

Sometimes I wonder who'll have more trouble letting go.

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(no subject) [May. 21st, 2009|02:39 pm]

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somwhere better than this
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you, He's in love with me
- Five for Fighting, If God Made You

Okay, it's such an old song. But I suddenly really wanted to listen to it today :D

Have a secret girlish wish that maybe someday someone will write me a song. (Hopefully when I can still hear it and not um, as a eulogy or the like!) Teehee. Okay so it's not so secret anymore. But hardly anyone reads this so my 'secret' is safe!

I think I blog too much nowadays for my own good.
I swing like a pendulum, between convincing myself that this is all for the best and wildly refusing to accept things as they are.
Meh, anyway must finish reading FTT book before dinner with Rach!


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Wash my mouth out with chocolate [May. 21st, 2009|12:18 pm]


Ahhhh my heart feels like it's being sawed into two.

I know what I'm supposed to do. But still!

Whine. Resist. Refuseeeeeeee. Throw a tantrum

I don't want to surrender. don't wanna.

Pfft.

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here comes the sun [May. 20th, 2009|05:01 pm]

I had so many dreams, so many plans--and yet, here I am now. With the great dreams I once had somewhat replaced by relatively short-term ideals and goals. I don't know what will come out of this really. My head says 'yes'; my heart is screaming 'nooooooooooooo'.

For some strange reason, I can actually see it all falling into place now; and this is a gamble I am quite willing to take. Because I believe, I trust. And for now, that is all I can do. 

What can I hope for now? Maybe just that in time to come, I will be able to see and believe in the beauty of new dreams.


 

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Hanging by a thread [May. 20th, 2009|04:51 pm]


Oh my God, please please please tell me the woman is insane.

Because if she isn't, I think I will be sooner or later.

 

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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2009|02:39 pm]

I saw your face
Elegant and tired
Cut up from the chase
Still I so admired
Bloodshot your smile
Delicate and wild

- Red Hot Chili Peppers, Universally Speaking
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